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27 November 2023

Busta Rhymes: "His Death Stopped My Career!" Busta Rhymes Finally Opens Up About His Grief, Nearly Dying & How He Turned His Life Around!

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Myth Buster· 1

Myth Buster1:20:30

Busta Corrects the Claim That He Drank Himself Into a Coma

When Steven Bartlett says Busta drank himself into a coma, Busta immediately corrects him. Busta says he was extremely difficult to wake after a night out, but does not describe the event as a coma; he reports that his son and security took about 45 minutes to wake him.

  • The coma wording comes from the host and is explicitly rejected by Busta
  • Busta describes an inability to wake himself rather than a diagnosed coma
  • His son's response made the severity of the episode emotionally clear
  • The conversation became an early part of his wake-up call

I drank myself into not a coma

Busta Rhymes · 1:20:30

I drank myself into an inability to wake myself up

Busta Rhymes · 1:20:30
#alcohol#correction#family intervention

Explainer· 1

Explainer02:00

The Village That Reinforced Discipline and Respect

Busta credits his parents and wider Brooklyn community with establishing a shared standard of discipline and respect. He contrasts that upbringing with his perception that neighbours now have less authority to correct other people's children.

  • His parents were strict while ensuring his needs were met
  • Neighbours were expected to correct children they saw misbehaving
  • Respect for elders extended beyond the immediate family
  • He describes this shared standard as the foundation for later success

it really literally took a village to ra a child

Busta Rhymes · 03:00

respect was upheld and it was that that integrity was defended

Busta Rhymes · 05:00
#childhood#community#discipline#respect

Story· 7

Story06:00

How Hip-Hop Became an Alternative to the Street

Busta says he did move toward drug dealing and other street activity, but hip-hop offered another path. Family, friends, and even older people involved in the street encouraged the creative route once they saw genuine progress.

  • He rejects a simplified claim that he never went in the wrong direction
  • Hip-hop provided a safer alternative he could commit to
  • His mother, friends, family, and neighbourhood adults supported the shift
  • Their approval added pressure not to waste the opportunity

I just was fortunate enough to have something like hip hop that was able to be an alternative

Busta Rhymes · 06:30

they were so happy to see we found another way

Busta Rhymes · 09:00
#hip-hop#mentorship#youth#opportunity
Story09:30

His Parents' Divorce Turned Confusion Into Anger

Busta describes his parents' separation when he was about 11 as disastrous and says his misbehaviour, disrespect, and anger intensified afterward. He recalls being caught inside their conflict, including seeing his father arrive for a visit while being unable to leave the house.

  • He felt unable to understand the separation as a child
  • He valued different forms of care and experience from each parent
  • Conflict between his parents sometimes disrupted visits with his father
  • He connects the family rupture with escalating anger and misbehaviour

it was disastrous for me

Busta Rhymes · 10:00

the misbehaving really started picking up

Busta Rhymes · 11:00
#divorce#childhood#anger#family
Story21:00

The Schoolyard Battle That Turned Him Into an MC

Busta says he initially wanted to DJ, dance, and make graffiti rather than rap. After Charlie Brown disrespected him during a schoolyard cipher, he wrote a response, returned the next day, and discovered confidence and charisma through the crowd's reaction.

  • He describes becoming an MC by accident
  • A public insult gave him a concrete reason to write his first battle rhyme
  • He studied LL Cool J's battle records while preparing
  • Charlie Brown proposed forming a group after being beaten in the battle

I actually became a MC by accident

Busta Rhymes · 22:00

that's when the whole bust of Rhymes thing started to happen

Busta Rhymes · 30:30
#origin story#rap#schoolyard#competition
Story1:10:00

Chris Lighty's Death Left Busta Lost Without His Manager and Brother

Busta recounts learning that Chris Lighty had died after seeing a coroner's van and body bags at Lighty's home. He says the loss left him confused and frightened about managing his career, contributing to a nine-year period without releasing his own record.

  • Lighty had helped transform Busta's earnings, advisers, bookings, and touring
  • Busta last saw him after giving him a ride to Grand Central Station
  • The reality of the death became clear when the body was removed
  • Busta describes Lighty as both his manager and his brother
  • He continued artist-development work but did not feel happy or secure

he wasn't just a manager he was my brother

Busta Rhymes · 1:16:00

I was confused about how to move and I was lost for a minute

Busta Rhymes · 1:16:00
#chris lighty#grief#management#career pause
Story1:18:30

How Two Losses Fed Self-Destructive Coping

Busta says his father died two years after Chris Lighty, shortly after father and son had reconciled but before they could enjoy much time together. He connects those losses with overworking, drinking, smoking, weight gain, and a period in which he felt and appeared deeply unhealthy.

  • His father died in 2014, two years after Lighty
  • He regretted the years lost to conflict before their reconciliation
  • He says he tried to drown pain through work, alcohol, marijuana, and cigarettes
  • He reports reaching 340 pounds
  • He confirms that he had sleep apnea

I was trying everything to drown the pain and the frustration and the suffering of those losses

Busta Rhymes · 1:19:00

I had sleep apnea

Busta Rhymes · 1:20:00
#grief#coping#sleep apnea#weight
Story1:22:00

His Son's Plea Turned a Medical Warning Into a Decision to Change

Busta reports that a doctor noticed his laboured breathing, examined him, and said his breathing passage was 90% blocked and required urgent hospital care and surgery. At the hospital, his son said he feared losing him and asked him to stop drinking and smoking; Busta says that plea settled his decision to have the surgery and get in shape.

  • Busta says his breathing had sounded abnormal for so long that it felt normal to him
  • He reports that the doctor warned he could die if the remaining airway became blocked
  • The doctor urged immediate admission and surgery, according to Busta
  • His son linked the crisis to the earlier death of Busta's father
  • Busta decided to pursue surgery and physical recovery

it blocked 90% of my breathing passage

Busta Rhymes · 1:22:00

can you please stop drinking can you please stop smoking

Busta Rhymes, quoting his son · 1:24:00
#airway#medical warning#father and son#turning point
Story1:24:30

The 30-Day Reset Dexter Jackson Used to Test His Commitment

After deciding to get in shape, Busta contacted bodybuilder Dexter Jackson for help. He says Jackson required 30 days in Jacksonville without visits from his partner or children as a test of seriousness; Busta assembled practical support around the stay and reports losing about 27 pounds.

  • Busta initiated contact after seeing Jackson on social media
  • Jackson made an isolated 30-day block the condition for continuing
  • Busta arranged meal preparation, massage, filming, engineering, and assistance
  • He kept recording capability in the house so he did not need to leave
  • The reported 27-pound change is Busta's personal account, not a general medical recommendation

I need to put you through something for 30 days before we continue this journey

Busta Rhymes, quoting Dexter Jackson · 1:25:30

lost about 27 pounds in 30 days

Busta Rhymes · 1:26:00
#dexter jackson#fitness#commitment#support

Q&A· 1

Q&A1:00:00

The Family Moments His Career Could Not Give Back

Asked about selfishness in pursuit of a career, Busta names graduations and childhood milestones he missed. He says he lives with guilt, while also explaining that provider pressure, child-support obligations, unstable business income, and the studio's emotional refuge shaped the choices he made then.

  • He missed his son's high-school graduation and a daughter's college graduation
  • He also missed opportunities to teach everyday childhood skills
  • He takes responsibility for choices and circumstances he helped create
  • He distinguishes his current judgement from the mentality he had at the time
  • He says the studio also functioned as an escape from conflict and distraction

I've had to miss moments that were never going to get back

Busta Rhymes · 1:00:30

I definitely live with guilt

Busta Rhymes · 1:04:30
#parenthood#work#guilt#responsibility

Takeaway· 1

Takeaway41:30

Why He Later Reframed His Father's Opposition as Love

Busta remembers resenting his father's insistence that he learn electrical work and his dismissal of rap, especially after an Apollo performance ended in boos. With age, Busta came to interpret that pressure as his father's attempt to protect his future and pass on a stable business.

  • His father prioritised stability and wanted to pass down his electrical company
  • Busta experienced the pressure as disrespect for the work he loved
  • Being booed at the Apollo appeared to confirm his father's doubts
  • Later reflection changed his interpretation of the motive, not the hurt

as I got older is I understood what he wanted

Busta Rhymes · 41:30

he just wanted to make sure I wasn't wasting my time

Busta Rhymes · 42:00
#fatherhood#conflict#maturity#immigrant parents