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19 January 2021

I Won 11 World Titles Because They Said I Couldn't - Anna Hemmings MBE

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Story· 7

Story01:30

How Training Beside Olympians Made an Impossible Goal Feel Normal

Hemmings began kayaking before age nine at Elmbridge Canoe Club, where athletes and coaches were already oriented toward national, world, and Olympic competition. She says seeing ordinary people from the club reach major events helped turn the Olympics from a distant television spectacle into something she could imagine pursuing.

  • She first tried kayaking as one of several childhood sports
  • The club emphasized racing and progression to elite competition
  • Olympic-bound athletes trained in the environment around her
  • Proximity made elite achievement appear attainable through work

if they can do it and these normal people who just work really hard can get there, then why can't I

Anna Hemmings · 05:30
#environment#olympics#role-models#kayaking
Story08:00

She Could Not Change Her Height, So She Built Exceptional Strength

At about 12, Hemmings says a coach warned that she might never be big or strong enough to become a great kayaker. She found the judgment devastating but focused on the part she could change—strength—and says she later became the strongest woman in the Great Britain team gym and bench-pressed 100 kilograms.

  • Kayaking selectors repeatedly viewed her as too small
  • She separated fixed height from trainable strength
  • The criticism increased her determination to keep trying
  • Winning in crew boats was especially satisfying after being underestimated

I can't change how tall I am, but I can change how strong I am

Anna Hemmings · 09:30

I was bench pressing 100 kilos

Anna Hemmings · 10:00
#adversity#strength#controllables#kayaking
Story50:30

From World-Championship Endurance to Barely Washing Her Hair

Hemmings recounts being diagnosed with chronic fatigue syndrome at 25 or 26 after a severe collapse in energy and capacity. She describes persistent exhaustion and muscle pain that left her unable to hold up her arms to wash her hair for more than about ten seconds or paddle gently for more than ten minutes; these are her reported symptoms, not a universal clinical profile.

  • She distinguishes her illness from ordinary tiredness
  • Her reported symptoms included severe exhaustion and muscle pain
  • Her physical capacity changed dramatically within months
  • The invisibility of the illness added frustration and isolation

it's more than just fatigue

Anna Hemmings · 50:30

I actually wished that my skin was covered in spots

Anna Hemmings · 52:00
#chronic-fatigue-syndrome#illness#athlete-health#invisible-illness
Story52:30

Doctors Found No Clear Answer—and One Told Her She Would Not Race Again

Hemmings says clinicians initially suspected overtraining, even though she believed her reduced training made that explanation wrong in her case. She recalls blood tests that did not reveal an explanation, an 18-month absence from training, and one doctor telling her there was no cure or treatment and that she would not race again at the highest level.

  • She reports earlier shorter episodes of fatigue before the prolonged illness
  • A graded return to exercise did not progress beyond about 20 minutes for her
  • Normal blood-test results intensified the feeling of being disbelieved
  • The prognosis threatened both her remaining ambitions and athletic identity

there doesn't appear to be anything wrong with you

Anna Hemmings, recalling a doctor · 54:00

you won't race again

Anna Hemmings, recalling a doctor · 56:30
#diagnosis#overtraining#invisible-illness#athletic-identity
Story58:30

Hemmings's Personal Account of Reverse Therapy and Recovery

Hemmings attributes her recovery to a treatment called reverse therapy, founded by Dr John Eaton, which she says helped her examine stressors, emotions, relationships, environment, and other triggers. She explicitly notes that chronic fatigue syndrome has multiple schools of thought and presents the mind-body explanation as her interpretation and experience, not a settled medical account or advice for others.

  • She says conventional and alternative approaches had not helped before this treatment
  • The approach framed symptoms as signals to examine possible triggers
  • Opening up about her distress was a major turning point in her account
  • She acknowledges uncertainty and competing explanations for the illness

there are many different schools of thought

Anna Hemmings · 58:30

that's my interpretation

Anna Hemmings · 1:00:00
#reverse-therapy#recovery-story#emotions#medical-uncertainty
Story1:09:30

A Great Training Plan Was Not Enough in the Wrong Environment

Before the Sydney Olympics, Hemmings worked with a coach based abroad and often trained alone from plans sent by phone or email. Looking back, she believes the isolation, lack of day-to-day coaching, limited emotional outlet, and mismatch with her extroverted nature contributed to an environment in which she did not thrive; this is her retrospective interpretation, not a general medical causal claim.

  • She could motivate herself and complete hard sessions alone
  • She mistakenly assumed a strong program plus effort was sufficient
  • She lacked immediate coaching, connection, and a place to express frustration
  • She later recognized that she performed best in a supportive group environment

I thought all I needed to do was follow a great training program and work really hard

Anna Hemmings · 1:11:00

I'm not a robot and I needed human connection

Anna Hemmings · 1:11:30
#environment#isolation#coaching#human-connection
Story1:20:00

Two Years Later, Hemmings Returned and Won World and European Titles

Hemmings says she returned to competition two years after her illness and won the 2005 world and European championships. She reports winning two more times afterwards and competing at the 2008 Beijing Olympics, then redirecting her experience into coaching leaders and teams.

  • She says she changed aspects of her environment, support, and self-imposed pressure
  • She returned to elite competition after a prolonged absence
  • Her 2005 return included both world and European championship wins
  • Her later work focuses on helping other people develop and perform

I returned two years later and won the world championships and European championships in 2005

Anna Hemmings · 1:21:00

I love helping others now

Anna Hemmings · 1:21:30
#comeback#world-champion#beijing-olympics#coaching

Takeaway· 2

Takeaway29:30

The Identity Label That Outlived Hemmings's Athletic Career

Hemmings says she still catches herself contrasting being an athlete with being a businessperson, despite having run a business for 11 years. She argues that people will increasingly have multiple careers and can carry transferable skills into a new identity rather than remaining confined by the old label.

  • A long-held role can become a restrictive identity
  • Comfort with the old identity makes a new role feel uncertain
  • Skills from one career can transfer into another
  • Reinvention requires accepting some discomfort and discovery

I've been running a business for 11 years

Anna Hemmings · 31:00

we should all have multiple careers

Anna Hemmings · 32:00
#identity#career-change#reinvention#transferable-skills
Takeaway1:01:00

The Poker Face That Helped in Competition Hurt Outside It

Hemmings says composure and resilience were useful on race day, where she did not want rivals to see injury or uncertainty. She also says carrying the same poker face into relationships and illness blocked emotional expression, support, vulnerability, and trust; the useful behaviour depended on the setting.

  • Competitive composure helped conceal weakness from rivals
  • The same emotional suppression isolated her during illness
  • She began sharing her struggle with people close to her
  • A strength can become counterproductive when used in the wrong context

one of the biggest and most powerful steps that I took was opening up to people

Anna Hemmings · 1:01:00

outside of that, not helpful

Anna Hemmings · 1:03:00
#vulnerability#resilience#relationships#context