10 October 2022

David Harewood: The Chilling Story Of How A Hollywood Star Lost His Mind

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Myth Buster· 1

Myth Buster1:07:00

Going Public Did Not Produce an Instant Sense of Relief

The documentary brought messages from people who felt seen and gave some viewers a way to discuss psychosis in their families. But Harewood rejects the idea that disclosure immediately liberated him: for roughly three years, strangers' painful stories repeatedly pulled him back into an experience he was still processing. He also worried that public knowledge of his mental health might affect how the British industry cast him, while acknowledging that this was an insecurity rather than a proven cause.

Viewers approached him with family stories and gratitude
He realized how many people felt touched by experiences of psychosis
Repeated emotional disclosures from strangers became difficult to absorb
He says he remained vulnerable and in pain after the documentary
He wondered, without establishing, whether disclosure influenced later acting offers

“I then had three years of dealing with it”
David Harewood · 1:10:00

“I worried that that's what I'm saying”
David Harewood · 1:20:30

#vulnerability#disclosure#documentary#career

Hot Take· 1

Hot Take1:10:30

Harewood Says Black People in Mental-Health Crisis Are Often Criminalized

Harewood argues that behaviour during psychosis can be treated as criminal or threatening, particularly when the person is Black. He recounts being restrained by police and says his consultant later told him that his records showed three times the legal dose of tranquilizers; another person told him that heavier sedation of large Black men was standard practice. These are serious claims reported in the interview, not independently verified medical or legal findings here.

He describes police restraint and emergency tranquilization during his crisis
He says some people in medical crisis are arrested before receiving treatment
His consultant reportedly identified an excessive tranquilizer dose in his records
A separate contact attributed heavier sedation to fear of large Black men
Harewood places his experience within a broader claim about racialized treatment

“particularly people of color are criminalized at a moment of crisis”
David Harewood · 1:11:30

“she said do you realize you were given three times the legal doses of tranquilizers”
David Harewood · 1:12:00

#mental-health#policing#racism#restraint

Explainer· 4

Explainer02:30

Harewood Says Assimilation Left Him Without a Stable Sense of Identity

Harewood says he grew up with few Black images in British media and absorbed the message that fitting in mattered more than understanding his identity. He describes leaving drama school believing colour should not limit his roles, then encountering an industry that repeatedly defined him as a Black actor. He presents that collision as one source of destabilization in his own life, not as a universal explanation for mental illness.

He recalls few Black images on television during his childhood
He says his generation was repeatedly encouraged to assimilate
Drama school let him imagine colour did not determine what he could play
The profession then foregrounded his race in reviews and casting
He links that conflict to uncertainty about his own identity

“I couldn't really structure my identity around a sort of solid identity”
David Harewood · 05:00

“when I came out of drama school and the world said to me you're black it was a real sort of wake-up call”
David Harewood · 05:30

#identity#assimilation#race#acting

Explainer30:30

Harewood Felt Rejected as Both Too Black and Not Black Enough

Harewood describes entering acting after classical training and being judged through incompatible racial expectations. Critics and casting structures emphasized his colour, while some Black peers regarded his speech and profession as too white. He says later work with a Black male therapist helped him question narrow stereotypes and become more comfortable with vulnerability and sensitivity.

Classical training expanded the roles he believed he could play
Press coverage and casting then repeatedly categorized him by race
Some people in the Black community criticized his speech and career path
He felt he did not match stereotypes attached to Black masculinity
He reports that culturally informed therapy helped him revisit those fears

“you're getting rejected by the press and critics because you're black”
David Harewood · 38:30

“it's okay not to be the alpha black guy”
David Harewood · 36:30

#identity#stereotypes#therapy#acting

Explainer52:30

Harewood Describes a Months-Long Build-Up Before His Breakdown

Harewood says the visible crisis followed two or three months of poor sleep, overthinking, distress, and attempts to hide what was happening. Recounting a consultant's explanation, he says vulnerability may involve a combination of stress, sleep loss, and earlier adversity. He also links his own spiral to professional hostility, smoking, and drinking to self-medicate; this is his account, not a diagnostic formula.

He remembers a gradual deterioration over at least two or three months
Poor sleep and persistent overthinking were present before sectioning
He says he drank in an attempt to self-medicate and continue performing
He attributes part of his distress to hostile racial treatment in acting
The combination of causes is presented as a consultant's explanation and his reflection

“there was a slow progression of not sleeping overthinking trying to hide that drinking to sort of self-medicate”
David Harewood · 52:30

“the stress the smoke the overthinking lack of sleep lack of sleep just ended up making me spiral”
David Harewood · 57:00

#psychosis#sleep#stress#self-medication

Explainer58:30

Why Acting Feels Safer to Harewood Than Unscripted Life

Harewood says acting is the space where he feels fully confident because the lines, movement, and destination are known. He contrasts that controlled environment with ordinary life, where decisions, failure, and contradiction cannot be scripted. Becoming a character feels freeing to him, while he acknowledges that the comfort of becoming someone else raises questions about insecurity in the self.

Known lines and movement give the stage a predictable structure
He describes ordinary life as uncontrollable and contradictory
Immersion in a character gives him freedom and confidence
He compares this contrast with athletes who excel in play but struggle away from it
The appeal of becoming someone else also exposes his personal insecurities

“acting is the only space I feel 100 confident in”
David Harewood · 1:00:00

“on stage it's a controlled environment”
David Harewood · 1:01:00

#acting#confidence#escapism#identity

Story· 4

Story15:30

A Brick Through the Window Made Everyday Safety Feel Uncertain

Harewood recalls a brick smashing through his family's window and scattering glass across breakfast. He describes school journeys and public spaces as unpredictable: weeks could pass quietly before racist abuse abruptly returned. He says his mother's instruction to stay strong helped him continue, but did not remove the fear or anxiety.

A brick came through the family window while breakfast was on the table
His mother sometimes escorted him to and from school
He describes the threat as intermittent and therefore difficult to anticipate
Trying to normalize the abuse did not stop it affecting him
A football crowd's racist abuse left him shaken even after he tried to hold his head up

“there was an English breakfast in glass because a brick had come through the window”
David Harewood · 16:00

“you might go three weeks with it and then you and you relax”
David Harewood · 18:30

#racism#childhood#anxiety#safety

Story21:30

His Father's Sudden Sectioning Was Never Fully Explained to Him

As a young teenager, Harewood noticed his father's routine disappear and heard arguments behind a bedroom door before being sent out of the house. His mother later told him that his father had been sectioned. Harewood says his father hated the hospital experience, seemed changed after release, and may never have forgiven his mother; these are his memories and later interpretation.

A missing morning routine signalled that something was wrong
The family kept Harewood away while his brothers restrained their father
Adults explained the event only as illness and hospitalization
Harewood understood the loss of liberty more fully after his own sectioning
He believes his father had a very difficult hospital experience

“that night that's when my mom told me that that had been sectioned”
David Harewood · 24:00

“my dad hated it and was never the same again”
David Harewood · 25:30

#sectioning#father#mental-health#family

Story46:30

The Voice Harewood Heard Sent Him Across London During Psychosis

Harewood recounts hearing a voice he believed was Martin Luther King Jr. give him detailed instructions and tell him to sacrifice himself. He followed the directions across London, was later detained, and moved through police custody and court while unable to remember his identity. He describes the voice as completely real to him at the time and says friends' intervention may have saved his life.

He reports hearing a commanding voice during psychosis
The voice gave detailed instructions and a grand mission
He followed those instructions while exhausted and disoriented
In court he used memories of acting roles to recover his own name
Friends had observed weeks of changed behaviour before arranging help

“this voice was swear to you was like real in my head”
David Harewood · 48:30

“if they weren't there I think I would have been in real trouble”
David Harewood · 52:00

#psychosis#sectioning#voices#crisis

Story1:03:00

One Mental-Health Tweet Led Harewood Back Into a Buried Experience

In 2017, Harewood casually tweeted that he had experienced a breakdown, forgetting he had never discussed it publicly. The response led to press attention, a documentary, his medical records being found, and eventually a book. He says the disclosure forced a reckoning with events he had treated for decades as a late-night anecdote.

He posted the tweet for World Mental Health Day
The scale of the response surprised him because the history was not public
The documentary led him to examine records and memories from 30 years earlier
The process produced his first book and plans for another
He describes the chain of events as a reckoning rather than a simple publicity moment

“that moment of oversharing has led to all of this”
David Harewood · 1:04:00

“going public with it was a whole nother thing and I was really scared”
David Harewood · 1:05:00

#disclosure#documentary#psychosis#writing

Takeaway· 3

Takeaway08:00

Harewood Reconsiders His Father's Silence Through the Hostility He Faced

Harewood remembers a loving, humorous home but little tenderness from his quiet father. Reflecting on the racism faced by Caribbean migrants in Britain, he wonders whether hostility and rejection damaged his father and others of the Windrush generation. He clearly frames this as a retrospective interpretation rather than a verified account of what caused his father's behaviour.

His father was often away for work and difficult to draw into conversation
The family home contained laughter but little open tenderness
Harewood recalls severe racist hostility in Britain during that period
He says many Caribbean parents avoid discussing those experiences
He now suspects those conditions affected his father

“there was a lot of humor in the house but there wasn't necessarily a lot of tenderness”
David Harewood · 09:00

“I think it damaged him”
David Harewood · 12:00

#windrush#fatherhood#racism#family

Takeaway1:17:30

Harewood Says He Has Moved From Vulnerability Into Healing

Several years after the documentary, Harewood says he can discuss the experience with more steadiness than he could a year earlier. He recalls becoming tearful when strangers brought it up in ordinary places because their stories reactivated his sense of helplessness. He now describes himself as being in a period of healing, while noting that emotion still rises during the conversation.

He says he did not initially recognize how vulnerable he was
Unexpected reminders in public could make him cry
Other families' helplessness was particularly difficult for him
He believes he has moved through the most painful period
Healing in his account does not mean the subject has become emotionless

“I've moved through that period of vulnerability into a period of healing”
David Harewood · 1:18:30

“I think I'm in that healing period now”
David Harewood · 1:19:00

#healing#vulnerability#recovery#mental-health

Takeaway1:22:30

Refusing a Single Type Became Harewood's Acting Advantage

Harewood says his therapist described him as formless: able to move between environments rather than performing one fixed version of Blackness. He connects that adaptability to changing his voice, playing varied characters, and resisting an industry that once treated him as a Black actor before an actor. He also recognizes the trade-off: the same versatility that expanded his range emerged from experiences that made identity difficult.

He invokes Bruce Lee's water metaphor to describe adaptability
He deliberately learned received pronunciation to avoid being confined to Birmingham roles
He values playing characters rather than a single racial type
He sees versatility as a distinctive professional strength
The host observes that this strength is linked to Harewood's earlier struggles

“I haven't tried to be one thing”
David Harewood · 1:23:00

“I can play anything”
David Harewood · 1:24:00

#versatility#acting#identity#career